#It seems like it might be the problem...

[riisume]

I'm wondering if my art block is because I haven't been taking my ADHD meds-

Last month I went a while without my meds until the end of the month. Art came back to me okay at the end of the month.

This month my routine's been so fucked because of the shit with my roommate's ex and I've been forgetting to take all my meds, even with an alarm.

I remembered to take my meds today because I took them as soon as I woke up instead of waiting until mid-morning... And I've been doing art with no problem once they kicked in... And my brain is quiet...

[boarloved-art]

ghost girl no longer wip...they did it...they made it out of wip-dom.....

[ladykyriaa]

I think one thing I'm gonna say to the people who are, in a way conflicted and/or waiting to watch the series is that you're honestly gonna have to be okay with grey areas. That's literally it.

KnH isn't going to explicitly show nor tell you how good/bad things are. it's an incredibly realistic story set in ancient China tackling its many issues; starting from societal problems, political, norms, gender roles, and so on. What might be problematic now isn't necessarily something the characters are going to think about more than twice.

I think a slightly controversial example would have to be abt the pedo emperor. YES, an incredibly horrible person and deserves to die in the most painful way possible. But KnH also tackled the issue that he had been human, all too pathetic and pitiful to rightfully rule the empire-never had the spine to talk to proper women thus resulting in him only talking and being attracted to (gag) little girls. You're not gonna see the characters talk ill of him more than necessary, they know its fucked up and frankly weird, but there's nothing to be done but to live with the consequences of his actions.

(Why I set this as a grey example is because I've seen people expecting the pedo to be this horrid-abusive person-and he is of course- but they certainly weren't expecting him to be depicted so pitifully and hurt, like he himself was a literal child still in need of protecting.)

don't also expect the characters to do one good thing after another just because you expect them to. Under different situations, different feelings, different place, their choices vary from one another depending on what's necessary. Don't even expect their relationship to be one linear from start to finish, thinking you can guess which way its gonna go.

in fact this is what maomao says when Jinshi questions her explicitly about their relationship

and i just think this genuinely applies to the series as a whole. Natsu Hyuuga isn't going to outrightly spell it out for y'all what Maomao nor Jinshi feels for each other, what the empress dowager feels for the pedo, what Ah-duo feels for the emperor and vice versa. She expects people to understand and come to their own conclusion.

She pieces together puzzles and expects you to fit them together, if you somehow got a different result from the way she intended then, well, that's on you I guess.

don't expect a "yes" or "no" answer to whatever questions you're about to ask. There's always gonna be a "but" and "however" to it, I think. At least from my experience of reading the novel and questioning the choices they've made.

People in this fandom throw away the word SA so easily, TOO easily I'd say. from here on out you're gonna read a lot more "problematic" things that other characters have done that they think are more or less for the good-whether that be their own good or other characters' sake.

The anime honestly does paint the series in a lighthearted way, and compared to other series it's certainly not as "dark". However I do think the strength of this series lay in its realistic choices and stories, how the characters feel so utterly human, not just driven by plot.

[medicalunprofessional]

never change, man !

[koumori-1999]

Hi, I'm a new follower and I've seen the drawings of Spider Ratchet and almost his story but I didn't find the post and I didn't take a screenshot. Still, can you explain to me again how it was and I really hope for more drawings of this because I'm fascinated.

hi! i'm glad you liked my AU and drawings ^_^

and sorry for not drawing him more often.. here's a little drawing to compensate. (i have other drawings that i havent finished actually, i might compile them in one post eventually)

his backstory is basically a mix of TFA blackarachnia and the dinobots from FOC, he's an alien-spider technorganic. the basics are that at some point during the war, before the autobots left cybertron, ratchet disappears and is later presumed dead. he was actually captured by the decepticons and kept hidden, and later used as a guinea pig for experiments by shockwave.

and while i still havent really figured out how to explain why he ends up on earth, i imagine that when he's there he reunites with optimus (who spent this whole time blaming himself for what happened). ratchet is not in a very stable mental state and holds a grudge, he strongly believes optimus never thought of searching for him when in reality he didn't know ratchet was still alive. a part of him believes in optimus, but ratchet has major trust issues and is also ashamed of the things he's done to survive and his current form and doesn't believe he deserves to be by optimus' side again.

also fun fact since ratchet isn't on the team on this AU, i imagine prowl being there instead

he's not a fan of the weird thing they have going on.

[youve-always-had-me-cas]

On a semi related note the more I am subjected to Microsoft products the more I become convinced that the reason so many people these days believe themselves to be “bad with computers” is that the programs they are forced to use in their professional life are utterly incomprehensible to ANY rational human being and they are (rightfully enough) extrapolating out that this is just how computers are. They aren't!!! In their quest to remove all the “scary” details from their poor fragile end users Microsoft have created an ecosystem that behaves completely erratically and unpredictably and is by definition unknowable. Things just happen. Then they stop happening. Nothing ever announces why or how. Just a thousand vague and useless popups that may or may not be there tomorrow. I PROMISE computers are actually extremely simple and logical beasts.

[wackywatchdotcom]

imo jax has no clue that hes miserable. like hes putting on a face for sure but i dont think he actually has the emotional awareness to know WHY hes doing that. he just wants to look cool and masculine and thats as far as he thinks on it. theres more to it but he doesnt know that. being sad isnt cool so he wouldnt even entertain the idea that hes secretly sad

[gingerswagfreckles]

It's really frustrating to see not only the narrative on the internet but the narrative on the news become "Kanye West pulled a bait and switch with the super bowl ad" like he hadn't added that swastika shirt to his website on February 7th (2 days before the super bowl.) I've now repeatedly seen both people online AND THE NEWS REPORTS repeat the straight up lie that he switched out his website during the super bowl, and it's like. Literally you are wrong. This is wrong. I was there. He had that shirt up on February 7th, the same day he announced for the second time in two years that he's a Nazi that loves Hitler. The fact that none of you were paying attention doesn't mean it isn't true. Jews knew about this. We were talking about this. You guys just weren't listening, as always. And you're not listening still, as always, and so the much more comforting belief that Kanye West pulled a bait and switch is becoming the dominant narrative, over the reality that they let him air an ad for a swastika T shirt.

[idkwhatimdoingbutslay]

The Hitler and KKK jokes were never funny tbh

[r0semultiverse]

Casual reminder that The Trevor Project supported KOSA; so yes, while their bottom line is helpful to trans youth (& unfortunately only anyone under a certain age), their top execs were supporting bills like KOSA not but a few months ago so be weary of that organization. Donate directly to trans people instead if you can or to Friends of Trevor and other more honest & reputable organizations. Though preferably directly to trans people in need.

[thefloatingstone]

I love Wyll a lot but I think the fans who like him best are the most insufferable people in the fandom....

[celtrist]

I just vented out a whole rant about how aromantisim is treated within Hazbin/helluva. I'm not really sure if I should post it for multiple reasons, one of which being I don't want anyone to feel targeted about it or take it the wrong way (like I honestly dont have beef with Al shippers. Gripes, but no beef as I also ship him on occasion).

There was just a sudden burst of frustration I had with it that I think was in part just came from built up frustration from other things. There's things I'd like to have out there, but I don't really think it'd get far or, again, be just taken the wrong way. I don't see a point in posting if people are gonna ignore it, plus it wouldn't change how things are now. If anyone has any thoughts or are curious let me know, but I don't wanna make anyone feel like shit or put a pointless rant out there no one wanted to see. I also wanna keep rants to a minimum as I know people aren't always into that sort of stuff, especially if you don't follow someone for that and you just get an influx of posts of them complaining. And I still want to keep things relatively light hearted around here, at best maybe just some critiques on things here and there.

It's late, I'm on my phone when I should probably just sleep it off, so sleep it off I will.

[cosmicsproutcake]

As much as I do absolutely still ship Hank and Connor, I am so glad that Leo and Markus occupy the majority of my focus when I'm hyperfixating on D:BH, because this fandom is downright insufferable about HankCon.

Like you'd think I'd get more hate for the genuine pseudo-incest ship consisting of two characters that actively tried to kill each other at one point, in which one of them wound up half destroyed in a junkyard as a result, than I do about the ship between two coworkers in which one kinda unintentionally half teaches the other to stop being so racist, but no.

[asexualbookbird]

Okay, so, I didn't read a whole lot this month. Hear me out. I'm not mad about it. I got SO much crafting done across different mediums. Nothing to show for it, really, but I'm having so much fun being creative in a way I haven't felt in a very long time. I think I might actually be able to set up some type of tiny shop about it, too. Got my embroidery machine up and running in a way that allows me to create my own designs, and when I tell you the creative juices are flowing, boy howdy it's like a dam has broken. I also started pokemon Violet, and while that's slow going, I'm having a lot of fun with it. So, no I'm not mad at my reading habits this month.

In the Ravenous Dark by AM Strickland ⭐️⭐️⭐️ - Phew. Okay. This was. A very bumpy ride. The first half was a slog, honestly, and the writing and pacing is not great, but the last third or so reminded me a lot of Beyond the Ruby Veil which was also not outstanding, but it was fun. Fucked up, feral lesbians. Poly family friendship going on. The plot is so basic, the magic neat, the worldbuilding lacking. I would not read it again, but at the end I'm not entirely mad I did.

Dark Matter by Blake Crouch ⭐️ - I don't even know what to say. I didn't expect to be wowed, I went in expecting no more than a mediocre thriller. What I got was A Book Written By A Man™️. How many times can a guy fridge one wife? Infinitely, apparently! I was semi on board until he started fighting his other selves. That was dumb as shit.

The Art of Prophecy by Wesley Chu ⭐⭐⭐⭐ - *Gordon Ramsay voice* Finally, a good fucking book. This took me most of the month to read, but I'm not mad about it. It was nice to sit quietly with this book, and while it took it's time, I never felt bored with it. I can't really pinpoint what keeps it from five stars, and maybe my rating will change in the future, but I did really enjoy this. It has a wonderful cast, everyone felt very real and well rounded, it was bloody, but never felt gratuitously so. It was a good book and I very much want to continue the series.

Favorite of the month was most definitely Art of the Prophecy. Kind of unfair because Dark Matter was such a disaster, but Ravenous Dark had it's perks. Mainly being batshit crazy and ending in polyamory.

My friends, as always, have been incredibly kind to me. I could not have gotten through the last couple months without them. Would like to do a couple of buddy reads in the coming months. I really did like taking my time with a longer book, and I think I'm ready to tackle the final book in the Rook and Rose trilogy. My library also finally got a copy of The Bone Maker on audio and while I haven't listened to an audiobook since December, I'm excited to give that a listen. As always, be kind whenever possible.

[tanadrin]

I know some of y'all have, like, complicated personal histories with psychotherapy, but it's kind of wild how borderline conspiracy-theory stuff about how psychotherapy functions get accepted as uncontroversial fact in this corner of tumblr.

[attineilde]

what if kevin, andrew, neil, jean, and jeremy just all date each other